One's Ending Is Another's Starting

21 September 2010
11.30am
This moment represented the happiness for me and my coursemates. Our Year 1 Semester 1 Final Exam is finally over. 9 days of hardworking and lecturing are damn fun and suffer. But yet, we still enjoy a lot. For another scene, this moment can be a disappointed moment for some students because of didn't put a lot of effort into the exam.

1.00pm
This is the beginning of semester break for me and my coursemates. Our first destination was Ipoh! We enjoy our lunch in McD, shopping without care of spending, watched "Resident Evils: Afterlife" and had our dinner in OldTown before we back to Kampar.
22 September 2010
10.00am
Gathering at Natalie's house for our first trip - 3D2N Pangkor-Sitiawan-Pantai Remis.

11.30pm
Departed Sitiawan for lunch.

1.45pm
Departed our trip first destination - Pulau Pangkor. We enjoy land tour and crazy photo-shooting for entire evening. At night was the truth or dare time.
23 September 20109.45am
Start of sea tour and snorkeling.

2.15pm
We finally "escaped" from island and "touched" the land. We also enjoyed Sitiawan cendol with pulut. Lolx....

4.00pm
Reached the place to see cute turtles and power plant.

4.40pm
Reached Pantai Remis and enjoy our "godlike" crabs lunch.
24 September 2010
Morning
After breakfast, another land tour started.

12.30pm
Packing and prepare to back to own hometown. Before that, for sure is another crazy photo-shooting session. Enjoyed laksa, wafer and ice kacang before back.

After 2.00pm
Trip officially end. Gonna plan for another trip before end of this semester break (perhaps).

25 September 2010 - Now
First time having big change on my hairstyle. I don't know is it good or bad. Some of my friends said got Edison Chen feel. Lolx...

Now what can I do is rest enough, sleep enough, eat enough, play enough and enjoy enough for entire semester break. Then semester 2 gonna be my tough semester.

~~ End ~~

Events might be short,
Memories might be fade,
But photos will never lies on our existences.

The ending of one journey,
The beginning of another journey;
Finish of this chapter,
Start of next chapter;
Let's continue the story with another blank page,
Let's another blank page filled with black, white and colors.

It's Just A Cycle

The rain is summoning me, but rain just passed,
The rain summoned me to feel the great moment when it drop on my skin.

The thunder is calling me, but thunder just ended,
The thunder called me to hear the sensational moment when it contact with lands.

The wind is whispering to me, but wind just stopped.
The wind whispered to me to enjoy the touching moment when it story to me.

Sometime I do love the rain, because I have nice memory with it.
Sometime I do hate the rain, because I also have bad memory with it.

Every minutes every seconds of rain,
It just like a melody of different story,
Enhanced by thunder and wind to make it perfect,
Slowly dropped to the Earth as orchestra.

Darkness is always short,
Once it drop-off,
Once it blowing,
Once it rung off,
Once feeling passed,
A brilliant start is waiting ahead,
And continuous cycle.

Try to love and hate the happiness, joy, fearless, satisfaction and bright,
Try to hate and love the sadness, sorrow, horror, emptiness and darkness,
Let all of them neutralize each other,
This just is what we called - "LIFE".

It's Ain't Easy, It's Ain't Tough Either

I think is been weeks I didn't update my blog due to Final Exam is coming. Actually I didn't study during Study Leave and keep enjoying gaming and watching anime. (Lolx...)

Today is the second day of Final Exam, which is Information Systems paper. Yesterday Management Principles paper was totally SUCK and I don't dare to see it again. Now I just hope I can just pass Management Principles. Unexpectedly, today paper was not as tough as I thought, or can be say quite easy if study the guidelines given. Thanks Miss Baljit for those guidelines. =)

Still got 3 more subjects waiting me. 21st September is the end for this Final Exam. I hope the following 3 subjects (Quantitative Techniques I, Principles of Microeconomics and Business Accounting I) won't be so tough. Hope is just moderate for everyone.

Good Luck to all UTARians and do your best for Final Examination September 2010.

It's ain't easy for me,

It's ain't tough for me either.

This kind of feeling yet still surrounds me,

How can I ... ?

What should I ... ?

Why did I ... ?

When will I ... ?

Where shall I ... ?

Stress Relieve

*Flash back* It still have 11 days to my final exam. Not yet done any preparations, all lecture notes and tutorials still "stay tidy" on the desk. I have no confidence for this exam, it is also my first time Degree exam, I'm fear I can't do well.

Today is FBF students register for their next semester timetable by according their course. My turn is 1pm and luckily my friends and I managed to "steal" the time we want. It's my first time done the registration in cybercafe (DDS). *Chuckle* We keep shouting and yelling like mad people when the registration lagged there.

Already quite a long time I didn't back to campus for any classes, for sure I become more and more lazy and tired. I think I should be alert and awake starting next week (Study Leave). This week can be said the deadline for me to have fun. After go and back from hometown, I hope I can start to do past year paper and revision.


My current situation:

"Net force" study
"Break even" feeling
"Zero acceleration" movement

More electrons I released to surroundings with protons constant, it caused frequency of effective collisions decrease and repelling between same charged ions increase, as a result study energy diminished.


Ideal situation:

"Full force" study
"Super normal" feeling
"Positive acceleration" movement

More electrons must accept from surroundings but yet still need to assort with protons to cause frequency of effective collisions and attraction between ions increase, as a result to increase and maximize study energy.

Indescribable?!

Red rose as passion,
Aloe as grief,
Flame flower as peace,
Olive as glorious,
Marigold as despair,
Lobelia as malicious,
Dahlia as betrayal,
Which love story you are?

Different human different persona,
Different path different story,
Different life different ending,
The power is in our hands.

Noah's Ark

Today I skipped PoMi Tutorial, BAcc replacement Lecture and IS Lecture due to laziness and sleep too "early". Actually, things happened throughout entire night. Sometimes I feel that confessing is better than hide and keep inside the heart.

One of my friends quoted, "Please don't tell the truth with lies in mixed, and please don't cast a frank in disguise." This telling the truth of human in reality, a sincere friend won't use their surface to cover their true self. Every person will grown and become more mature and independent when time pass. Don't think we have so much influence to affect people around you. In fact, those who get influenced will never grown.

University life, can be interesting, can be dull. The power of changing is inside everyone's hand. Don't let a small matter pull you down, and don't let a big matter destroy you. Foundation and degree are different, but why don't look both equally? For me, what make them difference is just the spelling. There is nothing to do on both, it only will become a useless excuse.

Family, small event might carry on with me, but any big event should not carry on without anyone of us. Sometime, many problems can just be settled or solved with just 3 words "I Love You", isn't? Learn to forgive someone, learn to feel at someone standpoint, and learn to let someone forgive themselves, any mistake in the past just let it become an experiences in future. This just can be called a growing process cycle. Without "implementation" and "maintainance", nothing can be said perfect.

Why don't we let everything sail with Noah's Ark? Let it sailed out from the darkness, forward to a brighter world.

Speak louder than action is useless,

Proof to yourself that you can make it,

Proof to others to make them change their impression on you.

Proof you've grown and matured,

Proof you're not childish.

We can't live in the past,

We should live in the moment.

Reincarnation, Regeneration, Reformation

It's been 23 hours in hometown and I don't have a nice rest because today woke at 7.30am just want to fetch my grandma and grandaunt to market. Luckily, I still manage to have a small nap inside the car while waiting them.

More while gonna packing and back to Kampar. I hope starting tomorrow I will have better mentally and physically preparation for everything. Suddenly, someone introduce a job for me with high salary although it is part-time. I'm interest but I scare I can't cope it well.

It's reincarnation, regeneration, reformation times.

I think is time for me to refresh, renew, repair myself.

Can't get my mind out of these memories,

Now time to tell them don't take any dream,

Still music keeps on turning me from the words that hurt my soul,

Removing doubts from my mind.

Those long days passing by from that door,

Like late summer they slowly fade away,

Finding ways through the favorite tune,

Play all day with my eyes closed.

Pursuing the Truth

Actually I suppose attend 2 soft skill workshops in my campus today, but when I wake up it already 8.30am and realized that I having a bad flu. So I let myself holiday for today.

Waiting my laundry done, packing my stuff, eating my brunch, listening songs, online-ing and watching anime at the same time. It seems that I already had some mentally problem.

Next week should be a busy week. Event meetings, replace classes due to going KL for week, PTPTN briefing and planning planning planning. Argh, busy life. But, I quite enjoy it, hah. Once think on coming final exam, I feel dizzy and don't know where to start it. Ish.

Later going back to hometown, is time for me to enjoy PS2 again. I can't wait to play "Persona 4" for second time. This game is so brilliant. A story about how main character build his own social links with his friends and solve a big mystery murder cases that cause by Shadow. I learn many things within, it taught me how to face reality and ourselves.

We're all trapped in a maze of relationships,

Life goes on with or without you,

Build a strong social links,

Accept the reality,

Face the other sides of ourselves,

Reveal the truth,

I swim the sea of the unconscious,

I search of your heart,

Pursuing my true self.

Keep On Searching

Whoa! It's been a long time I didn't update my blog. It takes me hour for "cleaning" and "repackage" it. And now, I'm back. I wandering why I stop update my blog and the reason is the house I rent in Kampar didn't has internet access from 1 May till this Wednesday. Luckily I still manage to survive till now.

Flashing back, my first year first semester in degree had passed 12 weeks. Rushing 2 assignments, 2 presentations and 8 midterms in past 10 weeks make me totally numb. And the coursework marks I hope can get an average or even slightly above average. 3 more weeks to the final exam, I think is time to start touching my notes. (Nah, I don't think I will do it.)

Blabbering end. By fact, many things happened back there and lazy to list out here. Perhaps I've change and now, I still searching for that lost feeling, a feeling that can't describe with words. A feeling that will convert to my strength in future, I'll find it someday.

The more you desired, the harder for you to get, why not just leave it and let it be what should it be?

"Perfect" will never appear in human dictionary,

but "Improve" and "Searching" are always inside.