Am I still able to withstand?

Y2S3 Week 9

Assignment.. Midterm.. Assignment.. Midterm.. Event.. Society..

It seem like all of them stick around me and can't get rid.

Pressure and laziness make me always no mood for it.

No much time left!

PLEASE! Wake up and proceed!

Delay will never win the race!

Just done with Moments Exhibition 2012!

I miss it so much! Was so happy all outgoing seniors came back and support us! ='[

This late of time, why am I still awake?

Reason never change for N years.

YES! Because I like to think much, thus kinda EMO-ing, DESPERATO and FRUSTRATO...

I just had a weird feeling.

Somehow, the distance between me and people around me are getting further and further until I hardly to hear you voice, feel you heartbeat and sense your breathe.

Why? MOST probably is my problem, I think!

I'm just not good expressing and disclose myself, and yet I don't want to trouble anyone.

The BEST solution is I take it my own with the GREATEST risk.

Besides, something between had changed!

You no longer the one I knew, but are you still the one that I'm waiting for?

It might be worthless because the gap, the distance and the feeling do take into account!

I admit that I can't lie to myself and I even can't assume all of these are not problem.

Indeed, it is PROBLEMS!

What can I do?

Everything is totally out of control,

One not yet end,

Another one start to come over,

It slowly decompose me into pieces,

Decaying me part by part,

I no longer in complete and perfect state.

This is the part of me,

That you never gonna ever take away from me.

All along I tired to pretend it didn't matter,

But deep down I know when I was alone.

Don't leave me BREATHLESS.

Post-Christmas

Yesterday was Christmas, and I just recovered from food poisoning.
Now having semester break, while Foundation friends still suffering their final exam.
Time flies, few more days 2011 had to say GOODBYE and 2012 will come and take over the world. Yet, Chinese New Year is getting nearer and nearer.

Just now, I saw my neighbour was making Kuih Kapek. They chit chat and laugh while they making it.
All of this make me think back the time I were helping my grandma and her jimui fold and keep Kuih Kapek into containers.
That‘s just the atmosphere of Chinese New Year.

The moments I had when I was small even it's short and few, but it always make me satisfied and happy.
When I see back the time, I knew I don't have much friends, not even best friend.
Many of friends said those together throughout primary and secondary life will be the basic needs, and those together throughout tertiary and working life will be the value-added needs.
What I can know that, my turnover is so high and rarely have the BASIC NEEDS, while VALUE-ADDED more that everything.

What should I do?
Will I feel happy with all of this?
Am I able to continue my journey like this?
Where should I continue?
When should I stop or go?
How to reach or upgrade?
Why me? =(

By now, gone had gone.

And what remained, grow older day by day.

Sooner or later, it will leave us someday.

At the end, we are still walking alone.