Indescribable?!

Red rose as passion,
Aloe as grief,
Flame flower as peace,
Olive as glorious,
Marigold as despair,
Lobelia as malicious,
Dahlia as betrayal,
Which love story you are?

Different human different persona,
Different path different story,
Different life different ending,
The power is in our hands.

Noah's Ark

Today I skipped PoMi Tutorial, BAcc replacement Lecture and IS Lecture due to laziness and sleep too "early". Actually, things happened throughout entire night. Sometimes I feel that confessing is better than hide and keep inside the heart.

One of my friends quoted, "Please don't tell the truth with lies in mixed, and please don't cast a frank in disguise." This telling the truth of human in reality, a sincere friend won't use their surface to cover their true self. Every person will grown and become more mature and independent when time pass. Don't think we have so much influence to affect people around you. In fact, those who get influenced will never grown.

University life, can be interesting, can be dull. The power of changing is inside everyone's hand. Don't let a small matter pull you down, and don't let a big matter destroy you. Foundation and degree are different, but why don't look both equally? For me, what make them difference is just the spelling. There is nothing to do on both, it only will become a useless excuse.

Family, small event might carry on with me, but any big event should not carry on without anyone of us. Sometime, many problems can just be settled or solved with just 3 words "I Love You", isn't? Learn to forgive someone, learn to feel at someone standpoint, and learn to let someone forgive themselves, any mistake in the past just let it become an experiences in future. This just can be called a growing process cycle. Without "implementation" and "maintainance", nothing can be said perfect.

Why don't we let everything sail with Noah's Ark? Let it sailed out from the darkness, forward to a brighter world.

Speak louder than action is useless,

Proof to yourself that you can make it,

Proof to others to make them change their impression on you.

Proof you've grown and matured,

Proof you're not childish.

We can't live in the past,

We should live in the moment.

Reincarnation, Regeneration, Reformation

It's been 23 hours in hometown and I don't have a nice rest because today woke at 7.30am just want to fetch my grandma and grandaunt to market. Luckily, I still manage to have a small nap inside the car while waiting them.

More while gonna packing and back to Kampar. I hope starting tomorrow I will have better mentally and physically preparation for everything. Suddenly, someone introduce a job for me with high salary although it is part-time. I'm interest but I scare I can't cope it well.

It's reincarnation, regeneration, reformation times.

I think is time for me to refresh, renew, repair myself.

Can't get my mind out of these memories,

Now time to tell them don't take any dream,

Still music keeps on turning me from the words that hurt my soul,

Removing doubts from my mind.

Those long days passing by from that door,

Like late summer they slowly fade away,

Finding ways through the favorite tune,

Play all day with my eyes closed.

Pursuing the Truth

Actually I suppose attend 2 soft skill workshops in my campus today, but when I wake up it already 8.30am and realized that I having a bad flu. So I let myself holiday for today.

Waiting my laundry done, packing my stuff, eating my brunch, listening songs, online-ing and watching anime at the same time. It seems that I already had some mentally problem.

Next week should be a busy week. Event meetings, replace classes due to going KL for week, PTPTN briefing and planning planning planning. Argh, busy life. But, I quite enjoy it, hah. Once think on coming final exam, I feel dizzy and don't know where to start it. Ish.

Later going back to hometown, is time for me to enjoy PS2 again. I can't wait to play "Persona 4" for second time. This game is so brilliant. A story about how main character build his own social links with his friends and solve a big mystery murder cases that cause by Shadow. I learn many things within, it taught me how to face reality and ourselves.

We're all trapped in a maze of relationships,

Life goes on with or without you,

Build a strong social links,

Accept the reality,

Face the other sides of ourselves,

Reveal the truth,

I swim the sea of the unconscious,

I search of your heart,

Pursuing my true self.

Keep On Searching

Whoa! It's been a long time I didn't update my blog. It takes me hour for "cleaning" and "repackage" it. And now, I'm back. I wandering why I stop update my blog and the reason is the house I rent in Kampar didn't has internet access from 1 May till this Wednesday. Luckily I still manage to survive till now.

Flashing back, my first year first semester in degree had passed 12 weeks. Rushing 2 assignments, 2 presentations and 8 midterms in past 10 weeks make me totally numb. And the coursework marks I hope can get an average or even slightly above average. 3 more weeks to the final exam, I think is time to start touching my notes. (Nah, I don't think I will do it.)

Blabbering end. By fact, many things happened back there and lazy to list out here. Perhaps I've change and now, I still searching for that lost feeling, a feeling that can't describe with words. A feeling that will convert to my strength in future, I'll find it someday.

The more you desired, the harder for you to get, why not just leave it and let it be what should it be?

"Perfect" will never appear in human dictionary,

but "Improve" and "Searching" are always inside.