Post-Christmas

Yesterday was Christmas, and I just recovered from food poisoning.
Now having semester break, while Foundation friends still suffering their final exam.
Time flies, few more days 2011 had to say GOODBYE and 2012 will come and take over the world. Yet, Chinese New Year is getting nearer and nearer.

Just now, I saw my neighbour was making Kuih Kapek. They chit chat and laugh while they making it.
All of this make me think back the time I were helping my grandma and her jimui fold and keep Kuih Kapek into containers.
That‘s just the atmosphere of Chinese New Year.

The moments I had when I was small even it's short and few, but it always make me satisfied and happy.
When I see back the time, I knew I don't have much friends, not even best friend.
Many of friends said those together throughout primary and secondary life will be the basic needs, and those together throughout tertiary and working life will be the value-added needs.
What I can know that, my turnover is so high and rarely have the BASIC NEEDS, while VALUE-ADDED more that everything.

What should I do?
Will I feel happy with all of this?
Am I able to continue my journey like this?
Where should I continue?
When should I stop or go?
How to reach or upgrade?
Why me? =(

By now, gone had gone.

And what remained, grow older day by day.

Sooner or later, it will leave us someday.

At the end, we are still walking alone.

It's Not The End, It's Just The Beginning

Life is just a ECONOMIC CYCLE.
When reach a PEAK at that moment in your life, then pulling factors will make you fall to the TROUGH, so called RECESSION.
Once again, pushing factors will boost you to another PEAK, so called RECOVERY / EXPANSION.
Overall, your life is at upward sloping trend as we're IMPROVING towards time.
LONG RUN give the clearer image than SHORT RUN.
And yet, concern more on achieving Economics of Scale rather than MP=0.

This short semester seem fast, just a blink of eyes, now already end of Week 5.

Lot of stuffs keep on coming and I still need to move on.

I'm in Year 2 Sem 2 now, one and half year more before graduate.
I hope that I can cope and manage well in every aspects. GOD BLESS ME!

When I promise you to get you a recognition,

I will try my best to FIGHT for it to you.

No matter what's the matter,

my promise will never backward.

I'm Sorry to Myself

Dear Yesterday,

It's been a long time I didn't update here since last semester.
Bundle of assignments, midterms and presentation keep giving me stress. Sigh!

Well, i had been secretly like a person, and quite a person know about it.
I don't know whether is my action was right or not?
H keep talking about S in front a lot of people and me, I felt so awkward.
I saw something just now and I realized that S felt "piss" on this thing.
I don't know what should I do. =(

Last 2 days I met R and advices me to give up S also, and don't keep making myself suffer because it's not worth.
I am lost, confused and undecidable.
What should I do?
If I give up S, who will become my motivation?

Later 10am I going to have Macroeconomics II midterm II and now I still stuck in Neway Klang singing karaoke with friends.
Yet, Basic Econometric assignment and Emotional Intelligence action plan still waiting me since later 5pm is the due date for submission.
What can I do? Not to sleep again? Did I do wrong again?
I lost my sleep since last few days, why?
I'm getting worry about my performance in academic in this semester.
Is it due to desperation? Is it due to Im getting lazier?

I'm not the perfect, but at least I hope I can be more perfect than now.
But, no one will appreciate or "spotted" me.
Life, keep making me suffer and tired.
Is this what I deserve? Is this what suppose I must get through?

From Today, 0300

Once In The Blue Moon

I had disappeared from here for almost half a year!
Finally I'm back!
I'm sorry that throw my blog for a long time.
Just cleaned those spiderweb, etc.

Well, today is a first day when I woke and realized that I no longer staying in Harvard.
Staying in Harvard since my degree course started till yesterday.
Somehow I'm happy, but yet I'm feeling weird.
Another raining cats and dogs here, hope I can go out soon to settle my stuff.

My first year third semester Final Exam is around.
7 subjects and 1 of it already pawned.
3 out of 6 I'm worry because all are memorizing and theory papers.
I hope this semester I can do it well and maintain my score.
To all bachelors in UTAR, all the best and good luck in this Final.
Especially those going to graduate, a very good luck in your future too.

Anyway, this time I just wanna disturb my blog for while before going to brunch.
Stay tuned!

Nothing is impossible in life, only us feel it is impossible.
No matter what is going on this Earth, I will stand still and face it.
Someday, somehow, I make majority proud on me.
The answers you seeks, I will reveal for you.

~I hate this love song~