It's all about chemistry: The another sequential

你的事情
About your stuff
不知你做到如何
I'm unsure how you had done
突然的一份信息
A message in a sudden
脑海不断闪过你的样貌
Your faces flashed through my brain non-stop
心跳也渐渐地增快
Heart started to beat faster
不知会不会让彼此无聊
Not sure will make each other boring
不知会不会冷场
Not sure will have a "lame" scene
不知……
Not sure...
不知……
Not sure....

又兴奋又糊涂
So excited, yet so blur
开始了第一次的见面
The very first meet up between me and you began

第一眼
First sight on you
我偷笑了
I was giggled
再多一眼
Another sight on you
那平静的心
That peaceful and calm heart
像一杯溢出来的水
Just like a cup of overflown water
开始失去控制
Started to lost control
想就这样盯着你看
Was thinking of just stare at you like this
但是
But
脸红了
I'm blushed
也不敢看入你的眼神
And not even dare to look at your eyes

难以想象
I can't even imagine that
你就是我一直想寻找的那一位
You are the one that I sought for so long
你那张脸
Your face
你的声音
Your voice
你的性格
Your personalities
就连你的头发
Even your hair
就是喜欢
I just like your everything

那一个午餐
That lunch
漫长
Was long
过得短暂
But it felt so short
了解你的一点一滴
The moment try to heard your story
时间就开始闹别扭了
Time started to disgruntled

只想让彼此多点时间
Just want to give each other more time
不要只是那瞬间的冲动
Not just for that moment of momentum and inertia
也不敢抱着任何希望
Not even dare to have any hope
就觉得应该只是单恋
Just feel that it just an one-sided love

但是
But
隐约地暗示
That hint
你察觉到了吗？
Did you realized?

《待续》
To be continued...

It's all about chemistry: The sequential

不知什么时候
I have no idea when is the time
开始被你吸引了
I started attracted by you
虽不曾见过
Though we never meet before
但感觉就是喜欢作弄我
But my feeling keep on fooling me around

从开始介绍自己至今
From the time we introduced ourselves
我都难以忘记
I hardly to forget
还不断在脑海中徘徊
And the memory just keep on flashing through my mind
不知所措
I am lost
也不知是对是错
Did I done the right thing?

你的每一张照片
Every photos of you
同样的脸孔
Although the same face
述说着你不同的故事
It told me a lot of yours story
你的每一字一句
Every sentences of yours
隐约地让我知道你就是那么有天分
Subtly let me know that you are such talented
你是个知识分子
You are an intellectual
你就是那么的完美
You are just PERFECT

唉……
Sigh........
我到底是怎么了？
What the hell on earth happen on me again?
我选择了等待
Stubbornly, I choose to wait
这次行吗？
Is it work for this time?
还是又像以往
Or will be the same that
再一次被自己伤害？
I'm hurting myself once again?

想抱着大的希望
Wish to hold a great hope
但是又矛盾了
But I am in contradiction again
希望你就是那一个
Hope you are the one
我一直等待的那一个
The one that I waiting for

你的眼神拨动了我的心跳
Your eyes struck my heart
我的眼神对你目不转睛
And I can't take my eyes off of you

《待续》
To be continued...

It's all about chemistry

一路以来

So far and so long

渐渐地

Slowly

想让自己变得更坚强

I'm thinking of making myself even stronger

尝试不再对渴望低头

Trying not to be desperate again

也尽力不被情绪控制

And trying my best not to emotional once more

但是

But still

我又失败了

I failed once again

第一次

The very first time

就已经不断地欺骗自己

I kept lying to myself

压抑着自己真正的感觉

Suppress my true feeling

整整有四年了

For an estimation of four years

而且还是

And

在一封暗示的信息下结束

It was ended by a "signal"

曾试过产生化学

Tried to have chemistry

一样的

Still

过不了自己的那一关

I can't

放弃了……

Gave up......

又振作了……

Stand up once again.....

但是犯下了第二……

But I done my second....
第三……四……五…………

Third.... Fourth.... Fifth....
无数的错误……

Infinity of mistake......
始终还是三个字

From the beginning till the end
“失败了”

"I'm Failed"

反复地

Repeatedly
其实只是自己的单手在拍掌

Actually I'm just "clapping with one hand"
不然就是不可能的化学

Else is the impossible of chemistry reaction

也曾错失两次机会
Had missed the chances twice

愚昧的造化
Due to some stupid mistake

还会有第三次的来临吗？
Am I qualified to grant the another chance?

或是隐约地表示重新寻找？

Or it implicitly telling me to search for the new one?

十年的差距
A gap of ten years
难以了解心中的想法
Yet is so difficult to guess the heart
忽冷忽热
Hot 'n' cold at the same times
是否放弃？
Should I give up?

近来
Lately

他消失已久的出现

He pop-out once again after a long "disappear"
也蛮突然的出现

Yet a sudden one
启示了许多一直等待的答案

He gave me a lot of inspiration for those answer that I had seek for so long
还叙述了他背后的真实故事

And told me all of his stories

谢谢你

Thanks
让我重新看到另一道道路

For bringing me to the next level, a new path
盼你可以就这样的走下去

Hereby, I hope you can have a smooth one

《待续》
To be continued...

平凡中的不一样

不知为何

虽然短暂

你的影响却是那么重大

之前没好好去认识你

但是今天的对话

开窍了我

也让我勇于踏出那团谜

谜

我挣扎了多时

还不断欺骗自己的内心

和他人的诚恳

加上至今的零纪录

减掉多次的欺骗

乘上屡次的失败

除掉前所未有的零经验

何时

才能等到你的出现？

我也不知何时

开始厌倦了等待

这复杂的心情

谁来谅解？

或许自己的挑剔

或许过于的要求

或许……

或许……

如今

那朦胧的面纱

终于揭下了

慢慢地了解自己

也尝试去了解他人

也许是暂时最好的药方

我

选择了这条路

介入了这个另类的世界

曾尝试改变

还是失败了

现在

我不会退缩

我也不后悔

这是

因为我就是

来自那个世界的人

A Sudden Thought

When I shot this photo, I suddenly feel so sad and unwilling. After two more months, it will be the 4th year yet the final year for me in my tertiary life in Kampar. I never know that time can be passed so fast, it just a blink of eyes! TICK TOCK TICK TOCK~~

It feels like I just joined UTAR yesterday. Everything it just so close and the memory was so clear! I understand. No matter how fast or slow the time ticks, every moments are moving forward and never turn back. Even it can, it just the photos that flashing back our memory.

In future when T=1,2,3...., I'm going to start my FYP and Internship. And soon, I'm going to wear the "square" hat and step into the society. I'm worry that I'm not able to cope with it and end up messed up my life. As I never have experience in this reality society. Besides, I'm sure will miss all my friends, especially Foundation TD3 and whole FE fellas.

Now T=0, I'm still have 4 more assignments to go. Then continued by 5 Final Exam papers. I hope I'm able to do it and get great result to boost my CGPA.

Under the same sky at the same place, but the person we meet will never be the same. New life comes with cheer and happiness (Expansion to peak), old life goes with sorrow and sadness (Recession to trough). This is what we called the cycle of the society.

We always recover and worsen off repeatedly. In overall, we are all improving on average. Do not let any F*CKER sneak in and speculate our routine. Life with own STYLE, that's the ESSENTIAL!

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Am I still able to withstand?

Y2S3 Week 9

Assignment.. Midterm.. Assignment.. Midterm.. Event.. Society..

It seem like all of them stick around me and can't get rid.

Pressure and laziness make me always no mood for it.

No much time left!

PLEASE! Wake up and proceed!

Delay will never win the race!

Just done with Moments Exhibition 2012!

I miss it so much! Was so happy all outgoing seniors came back and support us! ='[

This late of time, why am I still awake?

Reason never change for N years.

YES! Because I like to think much, thus kinda EMO-ing, DESPERATO and FRUSTRATO...

I just had a weird feeling.

Somehow, the distance between me and people around me are getting further and further until I hardly to hear you voice, feel you heartbeat and sense your breathe.

Why? MOST probably is my problem, I think!

I'm just not good expressing and disclose myself, and yet I don't want to trouble anyone.

The BEST solution is I take it my own with the GREATEST risk.

Besides, something between had changed!

You no longer the one I knew, but are you still the one that I'm waiting for?

It might be worthless because the gap, the distance and the feeling do take into account!

I admit that I can't lie to myself and I even can't assume all of these are not problem.

Indeed, it is PROBLEMS!

What can I do?

Everything is totally out of control,

One not yet end,

Another one start to come over,

It slowly decompose me into pieces,

Decaying me part by part,

I no longer in complete and perfect state.

This is the part of me,

That you never gonna ever take away from me.

All along I tired to pretend it didn't matter,

But deep down I know when I was alone.

Don't leave me BREATHLESS.